I felt the tension in my body release it was like a breath of fresh air blew though. I did not realize how tense I was until I felt the release. It was calming and transformitive. I should have done this before now.
I am going through my school books and files and clearing things out. Making piles to pass on to new teachers I know and to share with other teachers. I also have tons that is heading toward the recycle bin. There are books going to the second hand bookstore or the thrift store as well. Some may become altered books or journals for me or someone else. Others may find their way to another home or classroom and some may end up in the landfills or be used as kindling for a fire, but no matter what route they travel they have served me well.
My next step is to mail in my papers to the state so I can get paid in my retirement. Yes it is a pay cut, but we will survive. I can always sub if the urge takes me, or get another job. There are many options out there, quilt stores, book stores, private school, tutoring, quilting, who knows where the path will lead. God knocked and I answered. He said it was time to close this door, so I am sure he will open another for me when the time is right. Until then I will just float through the rest of this school year and see where the pat shall lead.
Several students are sad that I am leaving and some asked me to stay another year until they graduate, but they also understand that I need to move one with my life. It is time for a change and retiring is the right step.
The one thing I do know is that retiring is the right thing for me at this point in time."